Tuesday, December 27, 2011


I don't know how to hold on....to anything. In the end, i always end up letting go because am scared. But why am i scared? what am i scared of? im pretty sure once i find the answer's to those questions , i'll finally be able to hold on.

Sometime you meet certain people that can touch your soul  in certain ways most people cant . But you  have to let them go because you realize that it just isn't the best time in your life for them to come.it seems like you meet the perfect people just when you cant handle them ):
Its December and i cant believe the year is almost ending in a couple of days, seems like it was just yesterday when i was shooting fire crackers, laughing and calling my #1's to wish them a happy and successful new year.


Too much drama has happened this year , most of them i cannot share because its basically personal stuff *wink*!

I spend a large proportion of my day reading novels, random things , chatting  & anticipating posts. A post by one of my favorites blogs ( which don't tend to be the big ones, but i still like to keep up with some of the "original" bloggers me so they have motivated me so much  in the past ) has become as much of a highlight during my day as a particular meal or snack ( and we all know how much i look forward to my food (:
LOL i skipped from things that happened last year to my favorite blogs, anyways this year !

I figured out soo many things, I have become happy with my self & environment , not that it wasn't before but this year solidified everything. The real friends shined through during bad times in life. I dropped a ton of people and jut analyzed and observed a lot more. I think i listened more to what people had to say. I earned a lot more freedom, I indulged in anything, Everything, Anyone,Everyone i wanted to. I think i grew irresponsible and a bit careless just a bit ):   at one point but it was summer non-cholant. I kept better track of things, I reflected , I made some unforgettable memories (:     I was impulsive , I did random things , I climbed  ( that swing) I laughed ( @ peoples jokes) I surfed ( a lot ) I screamed ( when i got scared )  I yelled ( when i did something wrong or made something up) I slept ( like a baby * embarrassed* ) I ate ( soosai ) I worked my ass off ( LOL *packing*)  & finally i buckled down and became more responsible and accountable for my actions and deeds. I'm not saying the year dint go hard but i learned my limits and i am completely aware of my surroundings. i built new relationships with really outstanding people ( am sure your one ) .  I grew mentally ( Noooooo says mama ):   , I found inner peace ( says me ) , I let go of some terrible habits ( Says everyone)  I rekindled old friendship from the past ( i wont mention any )  I gained confidence when i needed it the most ( says baba)


This year was not anything remarkable but it was okay Allahmdulliah ! so basically am looking forward to another year of growing & learning Inshallah (:

Peace!!!x